Outgoing not cheap

Kadang2 aku seyes bengang dgn org yg salu pk aku ni murah. memang la aku salu pakai pakaian yg x sopan..aku pakai suma tu bukan niat aku nk tunjuk betis or apa2 anggota badan aku..biarla apa org nk ckp aku ni apa, yg penting aku pakai suma tu sbb aku selesa. itu mslh deorg la tgk aku tmbh dosa deorg. aku bukan nk ckp aku ni baik. tp kurg2 aku pakai cmtu,aku x kaco hidup org. kalo org mintak tolong,aku tolong.

aku bukan murah kalo aku pakai pakaian yg x sopan. aku bukan murah kalo apa2 yg aku wat yg kt mata org nmpk mcm aku ni pmpuan jalang. smoking is only a bad habit. laki isap rokok jahat ke? so, that applies to ladies.

aku penat nk hidup di kalangan manusia yg suka judge org. kdg2, aku terasa kot bila org pndg aku smcm. aku x kaco hidup de,asal nk tgk aku cmtu.aku beli brg2 aku guna duit de ke? lepas tu, aku kalo aku friendly sket,org take advantage especially guys. sbb tu la aku ni x suka laki dkt dgn aku kecuali boyfriend aku sndiri. walaupun aku pakai baju jolok mata and pakai seluar pendek, aku x bg org sukati sentuh2 aku. once laki tu,tgn de pndai jalan2 kt bdn aku,mmg aku x kwn lgsg la dgn de. even boyfriend aku sndiri pon,aku x knal dgn de cara cmtu kot.

x semestinya,aku pakai baju seksi, aku xtau agama. mak ayah aku tau kot aku smoking. so, apa mslh org lain yg x jaga aku dr kecik smpai besar nk kesah psl aku?

so,kwn2 tolongla jgn pndg serong kt org. selagi org tu x kaco hidup kta,x menyusahkan hidup kta xyhla ckp mcm2..kalo pakai tudung selubung satu tubuh pon,kalo maseh nk mengumpat psl org n ckp org sana sini, apa bezanya dgn aku yg pakai baju x cukup kain?

if you want to be a good muslim, be a very good one. so,far aku cuma tgk 2 3 org je yg cmtu.

nite readers

ps:xyh kecik ati or sakit ati psl post ni.

Success

3 years ago, most people looked down on me. Whenever i want to borrow their notes, they will hand me the notes with annoyed faces. Because i spent most of my time sleeping in the class and skipped most of my classes. At first, i was offended by those faces. After a while, i get used to that faces.

This is not about the faces. This is about success.

For me, the success which i experienced for 3 years and a half in college is not only about the pointers. It is more about gaining respect from people who used to look down on me. There were times when we supposed to have test and most of us did not finish studying including me; one of my friends said that he wanted to copy answers from 2 of my close friends and not me. Well, it may sounds stupid but he didn't realize that the way he said it as if he thought that I am totally stupid and useless.

There were times when i laughed so hard during the lab sessions. well, i didn't mean to play around but my friend kept making these stupid jokes which i couldn't help myself laughing. one of my classmates told me, stop laughing. do you want to fail 2 subjects again? how awful was that?

They fooled me around telling every one how stupid and useless i am that time. i didn't say a word. I kept silent. i thought maybe whatever that they said is true. maybe i am stupid, maybe i am useless.

i told myself to try harder and show them what i got.

after years gone by, my pointers getting better and people who used to look down on me started to put some respect on me. especially those with the annoyed faces.

the morals of the story are:
1. don't look down on people; we don't know their capabilities.
2. don't judge people
3. there are always room for improvements
4. don't be a quitter

*sorry for any grammatical errors, as long as the message is delivered.

Marah

aku asyik marah..huhu...i think it is almost that 'time' of the month..huhu...stress gla kot...x lrt nk bendung perasaan mrh..huhu...dh la kena hujan..dh selsema..cmna nk std ni...huhu...sudah2la hanim..pg la std..asyik tulis blog je..bla nk berjaya..kata nk jadi kaya...ok2...aku nk std ni..bye2..

INSPIRASI KU

Undergoing MyBlogLog Verification

Aku x puas hati!

Tadi aku pg study kt fakulti dgn Encik Semandin. aku baru je nk semangat std waktu siang2 cmni skali dtg kt study room tgk ramai gla org...dlm hati aku berkata 'bagusla budak2 civil ni,suma rajin dtg blaja kt fakulti'...ok...tgk2 xde tmpt..so aku n Encik Semandin pg ke level 9 tgk ada x kelas yg xde org...skali..xde jugak...so,ktaorg pon tuka fikiran pg balik kt study room td mane tau ada tmpt kosong...

kteorg sampai tgk ada 2 tmpt kosong,so cunlah...Encik Semandin pon kuakan laptop de,nk online smbil std..(aku x fhm la cmna dia boleh std smbil online,tp mamposlah)...pastu, tgk2 suis rosak..mmg vavi la kn...Encik Semandin pon x tentu dudok dh...de ckp de try pg library tgk ada tmpt x..aku dh ckp kt de,library time2 std week ni mmg full kot..kalo bley dudok kt tangga,mmg full kot tangga...tp Encik Semandin x caya..so,pglah...tgk cmna...aku plak,sementara tunggu de pg check library, aku try la baca sket2 nota law aku...mmg mcm vavi la nk baca notes dgn org2 kt dlm std room tu borak mcm tu tmpt deorg punya...dlm hati aku mmg byk la sumpah seranah terhadap mereka..haish...

akhirnya, Encik Semandin msg aku ckp library penoh..so skrg aku kt umah tgh tulis blog psl apa yg aku x puas hati..fakulti aku tu,duit byk tp tmpt utk budak2 std kurang...haish..apalah jenis fakulti cmtu...aku ingt lg ada kwn aku pnah ckp 'fakulti kta ni cm tmpt tuisyen je'...hahah..mmg btol pon kalo nk dbandingkan dgn fakulti2 lain..ktaorg punya fakulti,huhu...sedih aku nk ckp...hahaha...patut pon budak2 fakulti aku x btol sgt..kurang perhatian..huhu..

so the moral of the story is for those out there who want to use the study room,please use it for good reasons. not for you to spend your time with your girlfriend or boyfriend...or for you to hang out with your friends and make noise.it is annoying for me and other people who really want to do their revision in the study room..

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tgk baby dh marah..huhu...baby marah aku marah la...aaa...=(

Guilty

I was supposed to do some revisions on elements of environmental engineering and law engineering practice yet look what im doing..i am filling my blog with stupid mumblings and what so ever. as if i have nothing else which have more benefits from this. Haiya!!! dahla reading subjects are the most painful subject that i ever experience in life.. pnah ada kejadian d mana aku menitis air mata sbb aku x larat baca nota..huhu..sakit...sakit..pedih..

walau bagaimanapun,sekarang pukul 2.34 am jadi no point nk baca pa2...kejap lagi aku mungkin akan terbongkang kt tilam dan hidup kembali pada pukul 12 tgh hari besok..dan lepas tu aku teman dia makan,lepas aku smbong tdo balik...pastu aku bangun, aku online pstu check email tgk ada x org tu reply email aku psl article tu, kalo xde, aku sebok2 kt fb org..komen2...pstu aku mandi...buat tu,buat ni...pukul 10 mlm aku start std balik pstu aku hbs std pkl 12 mlm..pstu aku wat bnda sama...haish..kalo hari2 mcm ni,mmg parai la exam aku..huhu..(*parai=mati).

so, to all readers please pray for me...(xtau nk sambong apa)...doalah aku std dgn bersungguh2 besok..huhu...msti std besok!!no tdo tgh hari!!!msti!!!!!

No,no,no don't lie

The first thing im going to say is, I am a Sarawakian. Im very sorry for all Sarawakians because i write my blog in BM since i have friends from all parts of Malaysia. I wish to write in my own language yet it seems to be unfair for my friends which are not from Sarawak.

Well, apa yang terjadi hari ini berkenaan dgn tajuk di atas ialah kes menipu. Dari kecik smpai besar mak ayah dh ajar, jgn jd penipu. Lama2 mencuri. Pantun 2 kerat pon ada ajar tp aku lupa apa jd xyah la ckp apa pantun tu. Aku dh ckp kt ada sorg hamba Allah ni, jgn tipu saya. Tp tipu jugak..dh la kantoi byk kali. tp masih x serik2 jugak..aku penat la kena tipu..walaupun apa yg dia tipu aku tu xla terok sgt tp since aku mmg alergik kt org menipu, jd memang pjg berjela2 la bebelan aku kt dia. padan muka.. nati buatla lg...huhu...

Aku x sure la asal aku cmni. setiap kali org tu tipu aku, x smpai 24 jam msti aku tau dia tipu aku..so what is the point of lying when the people you lied to, know what you are up to. btol x? haish..

I wish that the person i have mentioned above, please dont try to repeat the same thing all over again. this life is like a karma. what goes around, comes around. DON'T LIE.

ps:sorry for my grammatical error since kadang2 ada org bley terganggu dgn kesilapan tatabahasa hahaha....=)

CMNILAH NASIB KO KALO KO TIPU LAGI!!

Billionaire by Travis McCoy feat Bruno Mars

I love to listen to this song since this song seriously about what i really want in life.

I want to be a billionaire so freaking bad,
Buy all of the things i never had
I want to be the cover of Forbes magazine
Smiling next to Oprah and the Queens

Oh every time I close my eyes
I see my name in shining lights
A different city every night oh
I swear the world better prepare
For when I’m a billionaire

Each time i feel bad about my financial status, this song as if gives me some hope that one day i will be somebody who are totally out of financial problems.
I don't want to be billionaire (billionaire sounds kinda overwhelming), i just want to have just enough money to have a good life where i can help my parents and buy all the things that i want.

2010

aku rasa tahun 2010 is the worst year ever. dugaan x henti2..every month ada.aku bosan la..seyes aku bosan..suma libatkan duit..huhu..aku nk jugak rasa org beli brg2 n hepi2 smbil berlari kegembiraan kt shopping complex n pstu beli brg online n click mana2 de suka n x pyh kira bajet yg ada. huhu...im sick..seriously..i want to have fun with my money like others. dh la skrg bekalan hidup makin mhl..huhu...aku x fhm cmne bley makin mhl..padahal rasa sama ja..dh la skrg aku tgh sangap trok. huhu..seyes..otak aku xley jalan langsung.aku cuma mampu terkulai kt sudut ruang tamu smbil taip2 je apa aku suka. aku x lrt tgk tv,x lrt lyn fb, x lrt tulis article. aku berdoa semoga tahun ni berlalu dgn cepat. aku dh x tahan setiap kali aku rasa suma masalah aku selesai,next thing i know another problem is coming. huhu...aku x rasa aku boros. aku x kua pon setiap minggu. duit yg ayah aku bg suma aku guna nk beli brg2 keperluan. bekalan hidup aku cuma aku beli 2 kotak je seminggu. top up and the rest suma mknn..brg2 suma dh nek harga n aku adalah antara mangsa nya..bila aku nk kaya ni??aku dh penat cari kerja online..tulis article suma..pstu pnah kna tipu plak tu..penat2 aku tulis 6 article.selambe je org tu ckp xnk byr aku..haish..penat nk ckp sbb pe,lg aku ingt lg serabut kepala aku.huhu..i know they are a lot of people out there who have bigger problems as compared to mine,but seriously i cannot bear anymore problems in my life..Life..please give me a break..let me enjoy this chapter of life being a 22 years old fat lady...huhu...

certain things are better left unsaid

sometimes, certain people just cant understand why some issues are better left unexplained. they can be quite annoying when it comes to a condition where there are too concern about us. it is not that it is wrong to be concern to people but it is better to keep it low as some people are not comfortable to tell things to other especially when it is about their personal life. so those out there, when you have friends who have problems, dont push them too hard to tell you what is happening. let them spill their stories themselves. it takes time for them to tell you what is going on.

alamak...saya tersilap

oh..aku tersilap...rupanya konsert paramore hari ni...bukan semlm..huhu...tp cm xde kesan la kt aku...esok ke..smlm ke...minggu dpn ke...tahun dpn ke..aku tetap xley pg..huhu...dh la bekalan hidup tinggal 2 bar lg..waa!!!have to wait until thursday for my bantuan kewangan..huhu...sadis...sadis...huhu...

hampa

hari ini ada konsert paramore..huhu...no money to buy the tickets...cuma mampu mendengar kawan2 pergi dgn hati gembira..huhu...(mahu menangis)...tp xpe..mungkin satu hari nanti,aku bukan setakat bley pg konsert paramore,aku mungkin berpeluang untuk ganti guitarist paramore...(mimpi di siang hari)...minta maaf...ini kali pertama ceta pasal diri sndiri kt blog,so agak plek sedikit...baru je nk buat uncertainty pnye pastyear...tp bateri calculator habis riwayat hidup plak..(ayat penuh skema)...haha..penat je bgn awal..nk sambong tdo,cm rasa bersalah plak...huhu...saya tidak mahu tido..xpe,kejap lg aku try baca notes environment kot..duit tggl rm2.50..huhu...aku tpaksa tunggu smpai khamis baru leh mkn enak2 sket...waaaaa!!!=(...nmpknya kena tunggu hari khamis baru bley beli bateri calculator..huhu...sadisnya hidup aku...aku berharap kejap lg ada duit rm50 masok dlm akaun aku..amin...amin...